Sunday, January 15, 2012
Is it wrong for me to not want to be with someone, because I don't like that the person does not have a degree?
or because I would like him to be more intelligent. He is 37 just starting at the bottom to get financially with it and thinking about pursuing a career. I am going to have a baby from this guy, I live with him now, and during my pregnancy I have told him that I don't think I want to be together for the long-term with him. The reason I gave him was that he had a short temper and no patience, which is true also. And since I've told him this he has lied to me about going out to nudy bars with his friends and having a facebook page where he has flirted and made plans with girls to hook up after I gave birth. And I said this is another reason I did not think it would work cause he just tried to move on while I was pregnant with our kid after we agreed that we would give it time to see where the relationship would go after I had the baby. I just think if he cared he would have waited to see what would have happened between us after the baby was born. I was thinkin does this make him immature, or was he just angry at me because at one point I tried to talk to my ex online, or like he said he didn't want to put his life on hold. Does this make him selfish? I'm just not sure of what I want now I think deep down I do care and love him and I feel bad that he has always thought we would marry me . But now I think even if I decided to stay a bit longer with him to see where we could go with our relationship, I now just feel very resentful, hurt, and just feel I could never could trust him for finding out his lies about going out to nudy bars and flirting and trying to make plans with girls. And I'm wondering is it wrong for me to want better for myself, even though I am educated have some degrees but am not financially stable myself? I think I'm afraid that maybe I won't find better or guilty that I for the sake of this kid have not tried harder to work on this. Am I right with what I am feeling?
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